Labor Day - A Personal Encounter with Jesus!

I’m drowning! & God, I believe You’re real but right now my faith and hope are barely hanging on! Why can’t You hear me? Lord! God! I’m calling You, Jesus!!! Help me God, PLEASE!!!

I couldn’t understand why everything was going so well in my life, but I still felt as if it was all falling apart. Everything I had prayed for was literally sitting in my lap and I still didn’t feel an ounce of joy, as a matter of fact, I started to believe it wasn’t blessings at all, that they were just happenstance. I know silly me; everything happens for a reason and everything God does is intentional. I had gotten to the point where I became entitled and greedy without even realizing it. Like I really deserve everything I had! Boy did God show me. I remember crying out to God, “I’m drowning! & God, I believe You’re real but right now my faith and hope is barely hanging on! Why can’t You hear me? Lord! God! I’m calling You, Jesus!!! Help me God, PLEASE!!!” & complete silence fell upon me every time!

Everything I had promised God I wouldn’t do again, guess what? I did it AGAIN! There was a sermon I kept hearing over and over in my head from Pastor Mike Todd “Don’t be bamboozled by the blessing” and I remember telling God, I’m not. I quoted those exact words to everyone around me for months not even realizing they were meant for me!

Everything God had blessed we with from 2021-2023 I was boasting and bragging like I did it all by myself, I mean every now and then I’ll through in a “Thank You Jesus,” but still trying to take full credit like I really did it on my own.

And then…

Rock Bottom!

You want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans!!

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.” (Jeremiah 29:11-14)

God had BEEN trying to talk to me! He had BEEN calling me. But I was too busy in the world trying to keep up and boast around like it was all me doing everything in my life. And then God said, okay! You won’t listen? You keep ignoring? Okay cool, watch me take my hand off it all.

Everything came crumbling down & I mean EVERYTHING! The enemy was eating me up and spitting me out. Every turn I made it crumbled, or at least I thought. I felt like I couldn’t win no way no how...

BUT GOD!!

I remember like it was just yesterday, September 4, 2023. It was Labor Day, and I had to show a house. While sitting at work waiting for my guests, still asking God for something, anything, just please speak; and then He spoke! He revealed a sermon to me, I had seen this sermon before but this particular time it was a specific clip out of the full sermon, and it was like God’s voice echoed through the whole thing while I was listening. When I tell you EVERYTHING, I asked God, it was revealed in that clip.

I kid you not, I begin to bawl me eyes out in that very moment grieving with guilt from everything that I had done wrong, everything that I had said wrong, and everything I had felt that I knew deep down was wrong. I’m boohooing & hoping nobody walked in this door to see me tore up like this. But when I tell y’all God is a protective shield, He knew the exact place and time to reveal all of this to me.

“When you seek Me with ALL YOUR HEART, you will find Me!” God repeated this to me over and over until I recognized “WITH ALL MY HEART” in that verse! With all my heart and all my soul, SEEK FIRST! That very moment God gave me revelation that the last time I clearly heard from Him was when I was spending time with Him. Yes, I still read my Bible app devotion every day, but I wasn’t taking intentional time to spend with Him. It was basically like a business meeting, I did it because it was a devotion. Although I knew I needed it, I didn’t VALUE it.

When I tell you, if you ask God for something, you better be ready for the answer…because God spoke! HE SPOKE! It was hard to just sit there and listen to everything He was telling me, but I needed to hear it all. I had been asking and asking, and He finally spoke and told me EVERYTHING I asked about. That very moment I became intentional with everything God told me, and life has been a peaceful roller coaster ever since.

I bet you’re wondering how is it a peaceful roller coaster? Well, my friends, “in this world, you will have trouble. But God has overcome it all.” Life is life and life be life’n! But since then, I have so much peace that literally surpasses all my understanding, I can’t even make sense of it myself and if I told anyone who has never experienced it, they’ll think I’m crazy. I sometimes think I’m going crazy myself and then I realize, it’s all God! After months of fasting and prayer and watching the miraculous changes in my life that I couldn’t explain how, but God, I just had to share my testimony. God gave me Vision of B.E.L.L.E.- Believe Even-when Life Looks Eerie! It was like I was born for this very calling! Good heavens became a thing I would say when I felt like something was tripping and I’m asking God what’s up now...so He reveled my blog to me for the first time a few months later on Nov. 10, 2023. I’ve been afraid to step out and share but He soon showed me shame is a distraction of the enemy. “I’ve cleaned you from your mess and shame, now it’s time to show My glory!” So, my friends if you’ve never heard the voice of the Lord, today I’m a vessel from Him saying BELIEVE EVEN-WHEN LIFE LOOKS EERIE! Pray consistently! Keep faith in it! Believe God for it! This too shall pass! He’s a healer, provider, promise maker, promise keeper, way maker out of NO WAY! He is our creator! Nothing is too big for Him to handle! No issue is too shameful to come to Him with. He already knows it ALL! And I mean, ALL! The addiction, the fornication, the adultery, the swearing, the idolatry, the hurt, the pain, the suffering, the broken promises, the lies, the threats…etcetera, HE KNOWS IT ALL!! Bring it to Him. Leave it at His feet! & walk in Faith with Him! From my own experience, He will guide you through it without a shameful bone about it!

This testimony is one of the hardest that I had to speak out loud, one reason because I’m still walking through it. But I believe with every part of my being God is right here with me and I WILL receive ALL that He has promised me! I will NOT be defeated, and the enemy no longer has any power over me! My friends, believe it for yourselves because if God could do it for an old ratchet soul like mine, He’ll most definitely do it for you too! I love you all! And thank y’all for listening to my testimony. Share for someone else’s encouragement, do it all for the Glory of God! In Jesus name!

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Pray with me

Father God in heaven, You have given me the ability to follow You. I call on You in my distress and You answer me. When I feel weak, remind me that You are strong. When I’m overwhelmed and burnt out, help me to stay focused on You. Remind me of what it means to persevere when I feel like giving up. I want every aspect of my life to glorify Your name. Let Your good, perfect, and pleasing will be done. In Jesus’ name, Amen!!!

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Scripture

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.” (Jeremiah 29:11-14)

” I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7)

I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. (Ezekiel 36:25)

If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything. (1 John 3:20)